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Butterfly days

9/5/2018

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This monarch was one of many on my butterfly plant which my husband planted for me several years ago.  They have been abundant this year.  When the kids were young we had a tradition of "hatching a butterfly" every summer.  The yellow and black striped sweeties munch on milkweed plants along roadsides and in fields and we would find one to bring home and place in a glass aquarium, feeding fresh milkweed daily.  If we went on a trip, the caterpillar came with us, once even to Colorado where finding milkweed was a challenge but we found some in a village parking lot.  
On occasion we were blessed and could watch the miraculous transition times.  First the change of crawling to the top of a well placed stick and forming a J, then the spinning into a luminescent green chrysalis, then turning black to clear and the emerging into a small, damp butterfly.  The orange almost glowed.  In great excitement we would bring the butterfly outside to dry on a finger or tree branch until its wings were sufficiently dry and it could take flight.  Every time it seemed they emerged on a sunny day.  Such wisdom.
I watched this butterfly and reflected on its qualities of fragility, vulnerability and delicateness, alongside its fierce strength and resilience.  I have been feeling very fragile in my grief of watching my husband weakened and pained with cancer.  Some days are so difficult.  The worry, the unknown, the sadness, the fear of being alone, the anger of wishing he had done something differently, the caregiving, laundry, driving, shopping, meal prep, and back to worry again - an endless cycle.   But like the monarch, I am strong in my vulnerability.  I am led deeper into my faith, and my holding onto God as my lifeline.  Despite the agony of my days, there is always some peace.  I know I am held.  This knowing wells up from deep within.  My spiritual sisters carry me, friends, church, mother earth - all are supporting me day to day.   I can fly this journey.  May you find your own strength in the midst of your challenge also.  And may we remember, monarchs fly together.  
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Cindy Schuler
9/5/2018 05:11:00 pm

Love you sister❤️

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Amy Colombo
9/5/2018 05:16:37 pm

So beautiful Kathryn and so true. The fragile, vulnerable place is at the same time a place of wisdom and strength that we have access to if we allow God to come in and are willing to see & feel. You are loved and equally as beautiful as the wings on that butterfly! Truly! Definitely light in our sharing. xoxo

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Kathy Walton
9/5/2018 05:44:29 pm

Beautifully written Kathryn! Thank you for sharing this with me. I love you, and your beautiful family.

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Gina Cameron
9/6/2018 08:25:49 pm

God bless you, my sweet friend! This is a gift. Thank you so much for sharing your soul. Yes monarchs fly together.

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Karleigh Cameron
9/7/2018 04:43:21 am

This is beautiful. Sending love to you all <3

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Candace Rotman
9/7/2018 05:27:38 am

You are beautiful and strong! I admire your constant grace and pray for you with all my heart. You are loved!

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Nicky McNitt
9/7/2018 06:13:48 pm

I have always seen you as a very strong person since the very first time I met you I think about 9 years ago?
You are an amazing wife and mother to those two girls!!
I can not even begin to say I know what you are going through because I do not. I just know you have an extra big heart like myself and so many people who love you and will help you through thick and thin. Cherish every moment you have and know you are never alone.
I love the butterfly story one I will always remember .
Sending my love and prayers to you and your family.
And please tell coach Brian we said hello❤️😘

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Sandra
9/7/2018 08:06:39 pm

Life seems to be an almost incomprehensible jumble of beauty and pain, joy and anguish, faith and despair...a pairing of opposites, somehow. But even within these extremes grace has a place. You, my dear sister, are an example of that. I love and respect you ...and hold you in my heart every day.

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